Dada is what?

I think that Dada is something no one would really get the concept of. It is art but anti-art.
So when we were in stac art I was wondering how to make something dada. But then realized that Dada isn't always planning something, From what I get from it Dada is just a spur of what you feel like doing. Just doing what pops into your mind but doesn't serve a purpose.

With acting with the hat the next day it scared me to see how it would affect people. everyone took it a different way and I guess it hurts to see your friends that are so strong even get bother by it. A hat. A hat is what it takes to bother the people you think are so strong. The hat is what has gotten me so embarrassed and ashamed. Ashamed of being a hypocrite to my sister and not being a better role model I can be. Walking into her room to take something.  Everything I do she copies and I hate that she is turning to me like me. I think the reason why I yell at her or try to hurt her feelings is because I see myself when I look at her. I'm trying to hurt myself when I see her. I love her But I can never tell her because I don't want to be weak to her. I can't tell her what I feel without feeling weak. So every time I hurt her I hate myself for turning her into me. wow, the hat never really affected me but when I am writing this and thinking it hurts a lot. I hurts to see what I avoid.
But bottom line, everything just hurts.

Intertwining Chains

        Well, I might as well be brutally honest. I hate blogging with a burning passion. It is probably because I have totally bullshitted my whole blog last year and I have this issue with commitment to do something daily. So that would also explain how my daily blog last year only lasted for 10 days. But this year I will most definitely try to approach each blog post with 100% interest instead of just seeing it as a piece of homework. 

       What is there to say? It was the second first day to S.T.A.C. and seeing all of these new faces I got a glimpse about how the Oldies last year must have felt. Some part of you feels something missing, the faces and atmosphere has changed and it is a year to just start a new family. To make new memories. not to forget but to just add to the memories. So when I walk through the door it felt like nothing has changed. I mean sure people are different and there are more to learn but S.T.A.C. is still S.T.A.C.; it is still a place where I can look too where it is my break in the day. But besides that I feel like sophomore year is a year where you just go with anything but when 7th period starts I have a bunch of goals to start and finish.

       While working on the wall today there was something that Luke said that has been on my mind. He said that the oldies seemed to breeze through the activity then the newbies and it has got me thinking about what has changed from thinking like a newbie to thinking like a stacie. Or about how my mind set has changed because of S.T.A.C. it seems like a light switch has been turned in your head. After a year being in stac , you learn how to think like a stacie. You just learn the expectations. So to all the newbies that have to clue what Luke's talks about (that tends to happen to me, no offense Luke) or is just confused, Have faith by the end you just learn how to think the stac way. But while working o the wall you learn about everyone so differently. Instead of playing introduction games or anything this way is much more entertaining and you get to see what really matters to others. Not just having normal conversations with them but you learn how they think and what they love to do. I also realized while writing my web that I spread out my chart to reach out to other people. There must be a bunch of lines crossing over.  But I also got to talk to other people seeing the connection that could be drawn. like I drew serenity and that got to be linked to Jei Woo singing. I really am interested to see how this year will turn out.